14 more weeks. i know. it's gonna be very fast. i noe it in my head. but i dun feel it. charlene encouraged me saying i survived 23 weeks. how come after 23 weeks i am still missing home so much..i really dunno..coming to London has turned me into a water tap..i dunno where the tears come from, but they jus come. never did use to cry so much..in fact i havent cried in ages other than watching sad movies..issit a female weakness? ha.

i miss church alot. i miss sunday mornings starting out wif that the world may noe during cg and then leaving early to go to recital hall to set up the instruments for lishi. i miss seeing zhiyang at the guitar, daozhi at the bass, jianen at the drums, liting at the keyboard, minqi and victor testing the mic, song leader standing in e centre, jianfan at the audio control, xibing laoshi err everywhere..ha....and everyone else sitting there below..then after service, packing up, keeping the instruments, thinking of where to go for lunch after that, or simply go home with family to eat chicken rice which qian and hui always complained about being sick of eating. and also waiting for daddy as he 'counsels' ppl. and also jus hanging around, talking with the younger ones and the older ones.

i miss yf..simple fun and fellowship with brothers and sisters..going out for dinner after yf..yf comm meetings at 'clubhouse'..all the many many activities..i miss..

i miss playing the piano lik i used to in yyxz..i miss the chemistry and talents of everyone..monday nites..i always enjoy every pract..even if it means going straight from choir pract in sch..going thru every song, perfecting it, linking the songs up..and doing all this, because we are worshipping Him.

i miss coming back to a home with my family actually in it..instead of a room..an empty room..lik charlene said..even if it means we'll get nagged at..for not making our bed, packing our stuff, washing up stuff, bathing late, using the comp late, going out too much..i miss home..i miss qian and hui..times when we sit in the car gg for dinner, and will start arguing on where to go for dinner..like how someone wont like lan wu ding, and someone else doesnt eat e cai fan from hillview..or someone only wants to eat rou cuo mian..hee..and how we used to sing alot in the car..all 3 sing tog until mummy will be v irritated and say we're really noisy..den there was once we came home and recorded ourselves singing amazing grace..hee..i still haf e recording..

i miss frens..i miss mg..i miss hc..i met dot today at an ocf gathering..super unexpected, and dot is still the same old dot :) haha i didnt see her..she was jus sitting there staring at me with her eyes and mouth wide open and when i suddenly saw her i was like DOT!!!!!! and we were both jus jumping and hugging. sighs. i miss the mg days. 4a1 4a1 4a1..miss our class..the bonds..i miss the nanas too..hee tho i'm glad we still talk alot on msn..at least we're all updated bout each other's lives! i miss choir..i miss busying myself mondays weds sats because of choir..i even miss the irritating bits like stopping a song at the beginning a few times because we didnt come in tog or come in with the correct feel or smth..i miss telling the altos to sing louder and hearing the basses booming beside us..i miss mixed positions and being blasted by the sops and tenors..sighs..i wanna quick quick go back and meetup with all these ppl...

i miss you...alot..hee :p cant put it into words..but u noe.

will only be back for 3 mths. 3 mths!! that's not enuf for me to counter all that missing and to save enuf for the next few months again. but yes..i thank God that all this and much more, i miss, but it is because i'm here that i learn to appreciate all this stuff. all this nitty gritty. all the little things. i keep imagining the day i step back in the recital hall. and i will jus sit there, watching u all play. i will stare long and hard. at every single position. keep it all in my mind. the day i am back there, singing chinese worship songs. listening to chinese prayer and sermon. i cant wait till the day i see everyone again. i will look at ur faces and remb all ur smiles. i cant wait till the day i step into changi airport once again. so many hurdles to leap before i will be able to do that. 23 down, 14 to go.