i think this is the biggest trial so far..it's not the workload, not the difficulty of school, not the difficulty of starting life in a new environment.

it's so difficult to believe..i cant go on living as if nothing has happened. as if nothing has changed. i will miss her so much. i will tell myself not to regret, and that i did once cherish all those moments.

and i thank God for blessing her, for blessing us, for blessing me. I will be still and know that He is God. God above all, who watches over all. praying for the strength..

thanx mum, it's true. to haf hope amidst the pain.

:'( i wanna hug someone