sometimes i lie awake at nite just picturing scenes, and tears jus flow from my eyes..unable to stop. I know why the tears are here, yet i dont know how to make them stop. I have faith, yet i just refuse to let go. i know the day will have to come sooner or later. I'm already missing you.

i never knew it would be this difficult.

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had family gathering on sunday, with relatives from my mum's side...havent had this kind of feeling in a loooong time..cos this side of the family meets up quite rarely, but somehow jus as all the cousins talked and played jenga togetehr, there was jus this simple feeling of closeness..from the older ones to the younger ones.. yay. :) thank God for my family even tho everyone has their own flaws.

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brought sis out on monday, glad to have made her day somewhat. :) it's the 'going-overseas-soon' syndrome that just makes you wanna try and spend time with everyone and make their day. i hope to be able to stay away from western food and concentrate on eating asian and hawker centre/coffeeshop fare until i leave! heh.

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it's already the 7th. i hate counting down. i dun want to. yet everyday before i fall asleep i'll be picturing the airport scene. i dont want to leave anymore. i just wanna hug you forever.