yf comm
had sat 2 in the morn today..met eliza diane and yiwen there too =) it went ok la..then after that went for lunch wif yiwen at bukit panjang plaza.
went for yf in the afternoon..it was comm elections today. before i went, already made up my mind (even planned a script in my mind on wat to say to reject the offer) not to be part of the committee 05/06. but somehow, God just works in his own miraculous ways.
then came the post..hai...despite my objections in my heart my name had to b called la..i must say it really was quite stressful when everyone's waiting for u for an answer..hai..how i wish agnes was beside me..ha..den at least can tok it out..ha..i think i make decisions this way beta..by toking it out wif someone at least. :p in any case, was feeling so confused la...so many different voices in my head..
i must say that i felt really comforted that ppl trusted in me to do this job well, but mayb my worry was that i couldnt live up to their trust/expectations? all these were popping up in my head.wat if i really manage to go overseas? and even if i stay in the local u, i'll b facing a whole new phase of my life, how would i noe if i'd b able to adapt? the answer had been blatant to me. at first. but now, mayb i'm seeing e whole situation in a different light.
3 ppl told me this. exactly the same line. that if you really haf to go or give it up along the way, God will prepare someone to take over you. well. mayb that's an answer to all my questions? i've learnt and truly experienced it. that's why i said yes. i decided to leave it to God. if he wants me to serve Him, i'll willingly and gladly do it. but if there is someone else to beta take that place, i'll gladly take God's answer as a no. the real lesson: to submit.
mayb it's true. the harder u resist, the more God wants u to serve. i was fighting hard to figure which was His voice.
Different persepctives, different circumstances, different possibilities of the future. I can only say that if we have enough faith and put our trust in God, all things will work towards our good eventually. All He asks is that we trust. The days ahead, no matter how it will be, i believe that In His Time, He Makes All Things Beautiful.
went for yf in the afternoon..it was comm elections today. before i went, already made up my mind (even planned a script in my mind on wat to say to reject the offer) not to be part of the committee 05/06. but somehow, God just works in his own miraculous ways.
then came the post..hai...despite my objections in my heart my name had to b called la..i must say it really was quite stressful when everyone's waiting for u for an answer..hai..how i wish agnes was beside me..ha..den at least can tok it out..ha..i think i make decisions this way beta..by toking it out wif someone at least. :p in any case, was feeling so confused la...so many different voices in my head..
i must say that i felt really comforted that ppl trusted in me to do this job well, but mayb my worry was that i couldnt live up to their trust/expectations? all these were popping up in my head.wat if i really manage to go overseas? and even if i stay in the local u, i'll b facing a whole new phase of my life, how would i noe if i'd b able to adapt? the answer had been blatant to me. at first. but now, mayb i'm seeing e whole situation in a different light.
3 ppl told me this. exactly the same line. that if you really haf to go or give it up along the way, God will prepare someone to take over you. well. mayb that's an answer to all my questions? i've learnt and truly experienced it. that's why i said yes. i decided to leave it to God. if he wants me to serve Him, i'll willingly and gladly do it. but if there is someone else to beta take that place, i'll gladly take God's answer as a no. the real lesson: to submit.
mayb it's true. the harder u resist, the more God wants u to serve. i was fighting hard to figure which was His voice.
Different persepctives, different circumstances, different possibilities of the future. I can only say that if we have enough faith and put our trust in God, all things will work towards our good eventually. All He asks is that we trust. The days ahead, no matter how it will be, i believe that In His Time, He Makes All Things Beautiful.
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