dont keep relying on urself..
had a 1 hour long piano practice at e kawaii studio today..the first of the two..now feeling quite drained...
haiz..was feeling sad and scared after the pract..cos jus felt dat it was so unproductive...i would only regard the first two times i played each piece as good..then after that it was totally bad...mayb cos played for 1 hour non stop la...but cant help but feel that my hands are jus so weak..haiz...why cant i haf better stamina...if this goes on like that..cant help but worry that i may not be able to last till the last piece..and that's the crucial one...the tough one...need lotsa energy for that..wat if i cant last till that...then all my practise will come to nought...haiz...
feeling better now tho..after encouragements from ppl...realise that i shouldnt depend on myself so much..cos in the end, we just haf to trust that God will be there for us and hold us when we fall...i really really hope that i'll rememeber that no matter wat happens, and learn not to depend on my one strength and my own capabilities...because we're nothing without Him. nothing.
there was the firefly scholarships talk today..felt that it's quite a good option too...always felt that i prob wont go for it cos it seemed as tho u needed econs..but well sorta learnt that u can take other disciplines like engineering too and they still need u as much...so hmm..maybe it's a good option? but haiz..feeling stressed and worried again..but dad told me to trust in God plan's for my life...well something i really haf to learn. no matter how much we may want something, if it isnt in God's plan for you, no point wanting it so much....
pray that i'll learn to rely on God in ALL i do..something really very difficult to do altho it sounds easy...haiz...
a week's half over le...so fast...it's already the eighth week...argh...here i am complaining again...stop it..haiz...
He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
haiz..was feeling sad and scared after the pract..cos jus felt dat it was so unproductive...i would only regard the first two times i played each piece as good..then after that it was totally bad...mayb cos played for 1 hour non stop la...but cant help but feel that my hands are jus so weak..haiz...why cant i haf better stamina...if this goes on like that..cant help but worry that i may not be able to last till the last piece..and that's the crucial one...the tough one...need lotsa energy for that..wat if i cant last till that...then all my practise will come to nought...haiz...
feeling better now tho..after encouragements from ppl...realise that i shouldnt depend on myself so much..cos in the end, we just haf to trust that God will be there for us and hold us when we fall...i really really hope that i'll rememeber that no matter wat happens, and learn not to depend on my one strength and my own capabilities...because we're nothing without Him. nothing.
there was the firefly scholarships talk today..felt that it's quite a good option too...always felt that i prob wont go for it cos it seemed as tho u needed econs..but well sorta learnt that u can take other disciplines like engineering too and they still need u as much...so hmm..maybe it's a good option? but haiz..feeling stressed and worried again..but dad told me to trust in God plan's for my life...well something i really haf to learn. no matter how much we may want something, if it isnt in God's plan for you, no point wanting it so much....
pray that i'll learn to rely on God in ALL i do..something really very difficult to do altho it sounds easy...haiz...
a week's half over le...so fast...it's already the eighth week...argh...here i am complaining again...stop it..haiz...
He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
Isaiah 40:29-31
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