tired and losing it

haiz. why does this only happen to me...aiyoh...the stupid comp shut down again while i was typing my entry....only happens to me! sianz. watever.

hmm...well 2 days since i last wrote...cos yest was a long day...was so tired le...well mus say that it was great to go back for choir again....after so much mugging...but well couldnt help but feel alone...like i'm the only one who still has part of the stupid block test left..tho the s7s haf bio pract too...

hmm dunno la..but jus like the more i think the more worried i get bout it loh...suddenly freaked out one day...ha..ever had that feeling where it feels as if the four walls were closing in on u and u start breaking out in cold sweat? ha...a bit the drama la..but it happens...ha...esp when time is runing out..

and i havent even started on packing for bremen...mayb all these adds up..then suddenly feel like i'm running out of time..den get even more worried..

today dunno why oso..feel especially drained and tired..mayb result of yesterday's long practice...12-9 pm! wha..dunno how i managed to hold out..ha feeling the effects today..ha..

really pray that i'll haf the focus and the determination and the self discipline to complete this last paper i haf to my best loh...and i know God's wif me every step of the way.

today had a really great worship session in church...loved esp the song which reminded me that even if i dunno what may happen tomorrow, God holds my tomorrow and will be there before me. so comforting! i suddenly feel like there's nothing i should worry about then...

but well..cant help physical tiredness..still drained now..hope i'll be able to complete my math revision and go for 4A1 gathering tml...

really really pray i'll get back my enthusiasm for bremen! dun let me lose it now! really cant afford to...